I decided.

To move on.

Decided not to get revenge on you one day use the force to make you pay for what you’ve done.

Thank you to Netflix and quarantine policy from Emergency Decree of COVID-19.

Thank you for “ALL THE BRIGHT PLACES”.

The moment we had is past.

It’s not wrong for me to be happy even you left.

There are people out there who seems like to be I need them but actually they need me more.

It’s okay.

Even no one is need me but I know I need myself.

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My dearest love, (not you) I know you out there somewhere. I hope you are doing well and stay safe from this world nowadays. I can’t believe myself that I’m still dream about you after a very long time. You still shown in my dream unexpectedly.

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I “love” myself.

I love dive in myself deep.

The moment that I live.

Every sense of “life”.

It’s … alive.

Yes, it sad. Torture. Suffer. Struggled. Broken in million pieces.

But… in that alive moment. It’s real. The happiness of mine are real. All the sense are real. It happened.

I didn’t just live after the society. My life is real.

Doesn’t matter what people will label it in what name or what kind of steryotype.

I won’t forget myself and wouldn’t. As long as I remind how to dive deep in moments and get back to NOW everytime, it’s okay.

The thing to do is slowly accept the truth of myself. The truth of my own story.

Hope that the ME in male version will find me somewhere. One day we will meet and embrace the life together.

How’s funny that the most happiness for life is so simply. Not from win the competition or save the world or being famous but it is simple just like you dive in the water of happiness.